BIG unexpected step yesterday! I introduced Brooke to this amazing new man who has walked into my life so unexpectedly that everything became a game-changer.
I woke up and told Brooke that I may be introducing her to him far more quickly than I had any intention to, because I really, really, really like him a lot and I can see significance with him.
She is hope-filled for me and has been asking a lot of questions about him. Happy to see me happy, she feels I deserve so much more than what my life has been.
Spur of the moment decision, introductions happened.
"Mom! I really like him!" she whispered to me at the first given opportunity. "I heard him tell you you are beautiful," which meant everything to Brooke.
She resented that I didn't hear those words she felt I should have lavishly heard for years that she over-compensated for. She hated that once in a while I was told sparingly that, "I looked nice." Brooke thinks I am beautiful, she is so proud of me and loves me deeply.
Brooke was a champ! Typically, she participates in small doses of family and friends polite conversation then retreats quietly. She engaged and laughed and actively participated in conversations with him and us for hours. She shared her art, her love of music, and who she is as her very own unique person. I knew she would like him.
I knew he would make her quickly comfortable because that is who he is.
I feel like there is supposed to be an invisible appropriate time frame to allow for healing from a 4-year breakup. It was my plan was to detox for months with no dating. That seems the emotionally responsible thing to do for my heart. In fact, that is exactly what I have done throughout this last year of our relationship that became a pattern of brokenness.
Perhaps, I painfully detoxed along the way and it made me ready for such a time as this.
I see his value and I see his worth.
