Father's Day 2015

Mariah looked angry when I lightly knocked on her bedroom door asking if she was okay. She told me she was angry and pissed off and when I walked over to her and pulled her in my arms she cried.

"Today is so much harder than I ever expected," she sobbed. I stood and hugged her to let her get it all out.  

It is her 1st Father's Day without her dad. I believe she cried out her anger because her mood changed for the day. Sometimes, anger and hurt come out in different ways. In tears and words releasing from your body like a poison because it simply has to. 

Brooke did okay. Okay means she went to Granny & Papa's house for a family get-together without bucking me and she ate. She wasn't shriveling in depression, even though she slept a lot. During lunch she wouldn't eat and I let her know she could leave the table, world war 3 did not happen.

Baby steps.

We celebrated Papa, my dad.

We celebrated David in our life. 

I am grateful myself and my girls have both men. They fill a role I am not equipped nor was ever intended to fill. 

Country Fest 2015 - Miranda Lambert

For months I kept a secret. A surprise for David with Country Fest tickets, pit passes and as my sometimes really good luck has it, I won a lottery Meet & Greet with Miranda Lambert, his celebrity crush.

I was more excited than he was that I pulled off something he doesn't already have or have experienced. To smile, speak, shake hands, pay compliments and get his photo taken with the very girl he has been googly-eyed over that I've had to hear about for 2 years. Miranda Lambert.

We didn't think to bring something for her to sign, so he put his badge over his heart and she signed it. Well played, David. He had only moments with her and I asked what he said? He introduced himself to her and told her she looked nice.

I bought a couple cute tops from Buckle to wear something new and country for our special date.

Country Fest was much bigger than I ever imagined. Thousands of people everywhere, band after band after band. Easton Corbin put on a really fun performance, Miranda's stage props were impressive and I liked Trace Adkins deep voice.

It was an experience.

He doesn't like surprises.

I'm glad I was able to pull off something special and that it is over.