Worth the Wait

It's been a really busy week. we started off the move with him in a fever and sick, then our all over the place work schedules, days worth of packing boxes, moving boxes, and finding space in my home. Movers moving the big stuff, and my relief we not only puzzled it in my house, but aesthetically it still looks good. 

The basement is packed with a mountain of things. Basically, we have 5,000 sq. feet between two homes into 2,000 sq. feet and a basement. My mom and dad's basement is filled, too. We thought downsizing to buying or building 1,800 sq. feet, open floor plan sounds ideal, perhaps after a major purge. 

We are making decisions as we go in our pace. 

I love having him here. I love knowing no matter how conflicting our schedules are, at night we are sleeping together. 

Our mornings start off laughing out loud before we are even out of bed. He is hysterically funny and lavishly showers me with affection, words of affirmations, and laughter. I never know what he is going to come up with, but he always surprises me with something wildly funny and laughing out loud before your feet hit the floor is good for the soul!

I'm happy. Really happy. He is so, so, so, so worth the wait. 

 

The Scent of a Man

 

My home is very feminine and now it smells like the scent of a man. His clothes put away, I can smell him when I walk up the stairs and in the bedroom. 

Putting away his clothes, I forgot I used to like doing a man's laundry, as odd as that sounds. I don't know why, I just do. 

All the little things are moved in, now the movers need to move the big stuff. 

My girlfriends have been calling and checking on me often. Anyone who really knows me, knows this is huge. There are many on the sidelines who must not believe I am capable of this, because I've chosen independence for so, so long. He is my best friend, he is my love, and I cannot wait to share life with him.

My house is quiet for the moment and I am content in the stillness knowing we are only days away from David being fully and officially moved in. 

He and his presence is intoxicating and I am ready!

My Heart is Twirling

 

He makes me feel beautiful and he makes me feel loved. When David walks in the door he always lights up like the Northern Lights. He lifts my hand and twirls me and always makes me feel beautiful at the end of long days. 

We've started the moving process and logic and romance fills my mind. I say logic, because he brings so much to this relationship with his family I have fallen in love with, with new friendships, and he brings some super neat kitchen stuff I don't have! ha ha He also has four living room sets we are trying to figure out on top of my two living rooms. 

What has surprised me the most is I feel I am falling deeper in love with him, which I never thought possible. I can only explain it having grandbabies... I am so completely in love with Sofia and when I felt I couldn't love any more than her, then Rowan came... then my sweet little Claire. 

My heart is growing in ways I didn't expect with this transition of our life together. We are putting our hearts, our faith, our trust, our families, our finances,  our everything all in forever. 

Thrill races through me and I am so blessed to share life with his man I am deeply in love with. 

A Different Kind of Embrace

 

I do believe it's been easy for me to trust God in my life, because I am blessed with an earthly father that I've always trusted and love dearly. I've always been a daddy's girl with a strong father who was my 1st hero. This set a place in my heart of what a man is and what love and feeling safe feels like. 

Being a quiet and strong personality, I've always known I was the stronger one in my relationships. Wanting and waiting on the sidelines for a man to step up and me ready and sliding in when I knew they couldn't. Wouldn't also means couldn't. 

It was Sweetest Day and we were standing in a beautiful home in a picturesque neighborhood. My girlfriend, our realtor, said, "Are you sure you want to make an offer?" She knows me and she saw this odd expression of I was saying yes, but a wave of  holy smokes this is a huge decision being made so quickly was more my expression. 

In all my home-buying bravado, I felt like I couldn't make the decision, and it needed to be made instantaneously because we both had to race out the door to two professional appointments. When I couldn't sort through my thoughts, I stepped into David's arms, wrapped my arms around him, and put my head on his shoulder.

He wrapped his arms around me in such a way, I knew I was loved, adored, and protected. It was the same safety as stepping into my dad's arms. An embrace that was pure trust and I said, "I need for you to make this decision." 

We made an offer on the house, signed all the agreement letter documents together, with an offer pretty good over asking price. We didn't find out until late that night it wasn't the highest offer. It's okay, it wasn't meant to be. 

Do you know what I got even more on Sweetest Day? When I came home from a wedding and walked in the door, there sat on my kitchen counter was beautiful roses and a love note he surprised me with before I could jump in the shower and he came over. 

What I got on Sweetest Day was the realization that while I know I love him, admire, respect, and trust him, I've absolutely and genuinely for the first time in my life trust him to lead our relationship and I am nestled in his arms allowed to simply be a woman. 

This isn't where I crumble my any means! I trust him because I know he loves me and respects me, and I know how much my happiness means to him. Like my heavenly Father and my earthly father, I found a man I love, trust, and absolutely respect, which makes ALL the difference. 

There you are... my soul has been looking for you.

 

The Romance of House Hunting

 

I was sharing with a colleague today how romantic it was when David and I began house hunting.

Holding hands, dreaming of our home together... so hopeful. "What do you like, honey?" "What do you like, babe?" Can you feel our excitement, our happiness? The home we find together is where our journey will begin and we decided together we would leave no stone unturned. 

Well, we've turned over every stone, we've jumped through hoops, conflicting work schedules, and raced to early morning and evening home tours to be aggravated at hope and excitement turned wild disappointment at what photographer filters can do to a home versus reality. 

I laughed and shared it all started off so romantic and hope-filled! Now I drive by a house before I tour it because the neighborhood counts, and I entirely nixed the best house we ever looked at because the road before you reached the allotment was ugly and I didn't want to drive down it everyday.

Oh my gosh [laughing] we sound like movie critics now walking through homes and post-tour. My girlfriend, our realtor, is a saint for what she does for a living. I feel like I text her every day, "HURRY!! We think we love this house!" Then, "Nope, the basement ceiling is too low."

Frequently, I'm taking Zillow sabbaticals, which last maybe 24 hours, then I'm looking to see if anything new has popped up. 

I've asked David when his closing date is, he's convinced it's in a month. This morning I requested he please ask his realtor. Let's just say it's a good thing, because he closes and has to be 100% out of his house in two weeks!! 

Hopes, dreams, and talking about life together, now has a move date!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love him and I cannot wait!

Let's just say... 

Sun's Out, Gun's Out

 

Don & Kandy asked us to do a day trip with them and what a truly success-filled day it was! It was her day and she hit 6 times then hit a Royal Flush. Cha-ching!! It was exciting for ALL of us to watch and be a part of!

They are both wonderful and I love them both. David is ALWAYS hysterical, fun, witty, and entertaining and I am wildly in love with him. It made for a fun road trip, a fabulous lunch, a weekend getaway next month, and Vegas in spring! 

In the midst of all of our super hectic schedules, waiting on the closing date of David's home, and us on the verge of merge, a play day road trip was perfect! 

Zen

 

Zen, a state of calm attentiveness in which one's actions are guided by intuition. To feel peaceful.

When there is too much commotion going on in life, I've learned I can quickly bring myself back into balance being in nature and/or a calm and quiet home.

Honestly, I wish I would have learned this at a younger age when I used to run around like my hair was on fire stirring embers of white noise that shatters peace.

After back to back weddings this weekend, church this morning, lunch and plans with Brooke, and plans with David tonight, I knew when a text came through from a girlfriend wanting to get together this afternoon, I had to pass. And, I've been wanting to see her! It was the only window of quiet I have in my day and instead of making everything happen, with a day trip tomorrow, I needed a few hours of quiet. 

The sun is shining, windows are open, and it's is a gorgeous afternoon. Perfect to do a few things I wanted to do and perfect to simply think through details without white noise being louder in my head than my own thoughts. 

God gave us a sound mind, yet people are more of an emotional, stressed out mess now more than ever. Yes life gets too busy, but be intentional about peace and quiet, too. 

[Meant to post Sunday afternoon, but tall, dark, and oh so handsome walked through the door.] 

Love is a Story Worth Telling

 

Love is a story worth telling... 

         Those moments between the words... 

                   Moments that take your breath away... 

Each moment that continues to build on one another, whether it be a tender word, a kiss that says a thousand words, or fingers that entwine. A smile that says, I'm happy to see you. An embrace I know in my heart I am loved, adored, respected, and I am home in his arms. 

These moments matter and they count. 

I never needed a man, I needed a hero. Someone who admires all the things about me, yet let's me be a woman as I was created to be. Me, I let him be the man in my life and I breathe life and love into him. 

I look at this man who makes me think about every oath I've made that I'm happier on my own and I realize he has done the unthinkable. He has made me fall in love again.