A Warriors Heart and Hero

I am ready to be caught up in an adventure, something greater than myself.

   What makes me come alive?

       What stirs my heart?

Knowing the pieces and parts I have fought desperately for, I can no longer disregard them without losing my soul. They are the core of who and what I am and yearn to be.

Adventure puts us to the test and requires something from us to see if we have what it takes and in the process we learn about ourselves and experience life outside of normalcy and routine.

Normalcy and routine bring balance.

I like to gain my equilibrium and strive to the next height and level in life.

Status quo has always felt like suffocation to me. I want adventure, passion, and to experience a way of life that taps into my wild at heart desires and has my soul singing.

I want to be caught up in something greater than myself ... and I want a hero.

What would Robin Hood, Tarzan or Wallace be without the woman they love? Lonely men fighting lonely battles. 

It isn't enough to be a hero, it is to be a hero to the woman he loves and willing to fight for. 

That's what I want, the stirred up inflamed passion of an untamed at heart man who knows exactly what he wants and to be a hero to a beauty. 

I've worked hard the last twenty years establishing a home as a single mom, raising my daughters and excelling in a career. With all these in balance, I am ready to push myself to the test, embrace adventure, discover and start living the life I yearn for. 

Doing it all on my own, I have far surpassed ready for a shared life with a hero impassioned for a life of adventure to live and a beauty to rescue. 

I want a warriors heart. 

Moral Courage

In a fast world of technology-addicted, unlimited access to anything and everything, lost is life and values that have been replaced with entitlements in segments of compromise.

I love new adventures and experiences. Last night a new walking path was discovered which feels like a treasure in my heart. The secluded path lead to an abandoned historic home from the 1800's.

It felt so remote surrounded by trees and ponds and walking up to this home to look in the windows, it was like stepping back in time. Into a world I've never known, but suddenly long for.

A simple way of life.

Less access to waking up to your iphone, Facebook, emails, texts, that distract and offer thousands of little choices at the start of every day and continue throughout the day. Choices that pull your thoughts into opposite directions, one little compromise after another and suddenly you look up and you've wandered from your life into one you don't even recognize.

I long for the noise to quiet and the gentle reminder of knowing that sometimes you have to take it back to the basics.

I long for the foundation of values, family, church, wisdom, waking up with a husband and breakfast. Knowing when to shut the world out and pull close together.

I long for the unsung hero's of character, honesty, integrity, and moral courage.  

This life offers unlimited anything and everything. I look up and see I have not deprived myself of anything or any want and I have tasted and enjoyed the best of all the things I've wanted to try.

Action. Adventure. Here. There. Everywhere.

My soul still longs for a life I don't have. And, walking up to that old, abandoned home I suddenly wished the world wide web would disappear where eyes wake up looking inside the home instead of curious as to what else is out there.

Hello Vacation!

This morning begins four days of vacation.

     Sun. Fun. Relaxation.

           Refresh and rejuvenate.

                  I am officially ...

The Granddaddy Sin

Opening my daily devotional I saw the title The Granddaddy Sin and thought, "Oh crap!"

It piqued my curiosity while being hesitant, what deserved the title granddaddy? It felt much like peaking behind a door you are afraid to look behind. What on earth? Here it goes ...

Pride is the graddaddy of all sins - typically the sin from which all other sins originate. It was pride that caused Satan to become Satan. It was price that caused the fall of Israel. And, as much as we hate to admit it, it is often pride that blocks the Holy Spirit from moving in our lives. It's the sin with the strongest grip, the sin we loathe when we see it in others, and the sin we often refuse to see in ourselves.

Throughout Scripture, God calls Christians to be humble and warns of the consequences of pride, "For those who exalt themselves will be humbled" and he foretells of the blessings of humility, "Those who humble themselves will be exalted." - Matthew 23:12.

pride

     noun

1.

a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc.

2.

the state or feeling of being proud.

3.

a becoming or dignified sense of what is due to oneself or one's position or character; self-respect; self-esteem.

4.

pleasure or satisfaction taken in something done by or belonging to oneself or believed to reflect credit upon oneself:

Synonyms being: Ego, self-confidence, self-love, self sufficiency, self trust.

Not a novice, lest being lifted up with pride he 

fall into the condemnation of the devil.

 - 1 Timothy 3:6

It was pride that caused Satan to become Satan. 

What a powerful statement. To be cast from heaven due to a dignified sense of oneself, to hell.

Destruction of everything good and perfect because of an entitled thought and a snowball of actions.

Summer Nights and Baseball

It has been said that baseball is the all-American past time and in the present it is as summer as ice cream cones, watermelon, and bike rides.

Tuesday nights are spent at the ball field watching my Mariah & Jeremy play ball. 

There is something nostalgic about being at a ball field. I played when I was young and my dad played ball throughout my youth. Now I sit watching my daughter and her husband play with the familiar sounds of a bat striking a ball, the sound of a ball landing in a glove, the calls of the umpire and the echo of "good game, good game, good game."

My mom and dad, brother and nephew present, I see a granddad doing his best to keep his grand baby happy and quiet as its mom and dad are playing on the team. And it hits me ... that is going to be my responsibility one day. I. Cannot. Wait. 

Oh, Hot and Sunny Summer Day

Oh, hot and sunny summer day ...

       My day off  ...

            Brooke is at work ...

                the house is peaceful and quiet ...

                     the windows open ...

                          and I have an entire day to play.

Some days need to be taking advantage of and there is so much to do, so much I like to do. So many choices, so I will say a quick prayer to make the most of today.

Sunshine. Active. Adventure. 

Work hard. Play harder.

The Cool Mom/Mother-in-Law

Getting herself a new bike for her birthday, Mariah and Jeremy have been talking about wanting to go biking and try new trails. 

[Insert mom with new biking transportation, hitch and bike rack]

We rode approximately 24 miles in some pretty intense summer heat.

They loved experiencing a new biking path and are excited to go back and liked the fact they could stop for refreshments midway. 

This is us at the end of our biking adventure. 

I love it that I am the cool mom/mother-in-law. I am a mom when they need anything and a friend they like doing things with. 

Always hugging affectionate, I love it when I dropped them off and we are all happily chatting when Mariah says, "I love you" and Jeremy chimes right in saying goodbye and says, "love you." 

They are both so wonderful and I am so blessed.

I love their active lifestyle and they are fun to be with. Theirs will be a fun-filled life of adventure and that doesn't get any better.