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*Smile*  Life feels like the movie Groundhog Day when the years roll by like the days in the movie and we figure out how to do it better and better.

Today my body feels like it's 85 years old only because every muscle hurts from playing too hard. Riding a jet ski hard, opened up and skimming on top of the water takes muscle power and I am feeling every one of those muscles today. David and I are both sore all over. 

The best weather of the summer has been my vacation time off work, thank you, Jesus!

Each day filled with fun activities strategically coordinated to allow fun and quality time with family, girlfriends and David. My five days off work became so much more than I hoped for and the weather, perfect. 

What did I do? The question is, what didn't I do. That's how we play.

Work hard, play harder.

Classic Tulip

Weeks ago one of my favorite photo's titled Classic Tulip fell off my wall and the frame fell apart.

I'm not sure why I haven't put the effort into putting it back together, because when it fell I absolutely questioned in my mind if there was a parallel.

Perhaps there was.

It's time to put my frame back together.

Life Balance

Sometimes there are no words ... and it feels as if it has been forever since I have blogged. 

I miss it. I miss my routine that keeps me re-energized and at my best. 

Life happens.

Some things are too personal, too private, too much to share. Only a close few are sought out for understanding, wisdom, guidance and a voice of reason when reason escapes me.

This whole summer has been weird. It is mid-July and due to a 6-day week work schedule and constant rain I have not done even a 1/4 of the outdoor activities that makes summer feel like a well-cherished summer. 

I am not competing in Warrior Dash less than one month away. How could I when my endurance is not up to par as when I entered spring and felt as strong as ever. 

Blindsided. Blindsided. 

    I still feel as if I am finding my equilibrium.

 

          Will I have endless days to play in the sun still?

                 I was so steadfast and on track going 100 mph to be derailed.

             Out of balance.

          Questioning everything ...

     ... but God.

Today, it's raining and I am relieved. Windows open, the sun not shining, no place to go. Hair in a sloppy-knot, dressed comfy, no need to impress.

It's weird for me to feel indifferent. 

Sometimes the process of getting back to myself is doing the little things that bring balance that bring me back to my center. 

I'm figuring out what's in balance and what is out of balance to be well-balanced.